Wow

seems like sprite is making a Cum back (lol gross)

I don't know

whenever im emotional i try to put it in words but it never comes out the way i want them to,so i'll try again

this is a blah statement of my heart being crushed

me i have a hundred and thirty-six mask i wear
the one that says im cool, hiding every tear i ever cried for you
the second one saying im over you and i just want to be friends when knowing your talkin to someone else breaks me slowly inside..
the third one shows everyone this lie of me being this confident girl when really im scared ..really scared 16 year old girl being called ugly 24/7

marriage

Im starting to wonder if it's real, like i use to think about it alot i mean i wanted it but i don't think it's real anymore ,like i can't see myself in a white gown and all white bull shit ,it feels like lies to me .I used to see myself marrying some amazing guy but they all play these high school games,they either want you to pass some messed up mental test they have,or they are like walls and won't open up to you at all or they are either dreamers who don't know what they want out of life yet ( your 30 figure it the fuck out already )i don't understand why guys say women are hard to figure out because right now im starting to think it's the other way around.or maybe I act just like a guy i don't talk, i don't open up about anything, i don't cry, and i think about sex 24/7 .....so yeah im a tomboy who's tired of bull shit :)

me facts

facts about me

*I love to be in love

* I sing (not well) but I sing

* I was called gay in high school because i played basketball

* I love to laugh

* I love cars

* I cried when i won a trip to take a tour around the vogue office and into the vogue closet ( it was beautiful)

* I want to hang out with drag queens

* I want a body like sanaa lathan in love and basketball

* i can adapt to any man i talk to

* I've lied so much in my life i don't even know what's true anymore

* I want to move back to Brooklyn

* I'm jealous of any woman i feel that's prettier than me ( well maybe not every woman)

* I try not to get sad because it's a waste of time

* I don't cry because it's a sign i weakness

* I had a crush on another guy that blogs ( couple months ago ..I'm over it)

* next year i get out of school

* I taught my grandma how to stanky leg

* I want a 1967 gto

* i live in Maryland(boo)

LMFAO

this is hella funny

I love a big ego

this video sucks hard
I wasn't sure if this was beyonce or a drag queen

but the song is hot

heartbreak

I thought i was over my ex but apartly im not
He's getting married
and when i found out last night and i kinda died inside...
I told myself "Im cool".. "Im over him"
and now im sitting here un able to get the picture of him and her out my mind
im trying to understand how to forget about him the way he did me


but to make it worse he left me a shitty message on facebook and kinda claimed me as being a stalker which he turned me off completely and now i feel hurt


love sucks so bad

Harlem battle

NO megan good ...please don't sing

WTH ..that's all i have to say

megan good singing

peace

Im not going to be blogging for a while...or i may just delete it i don't know ...i just don't feel like being on here for a while

i'll probably post like links,kicks.fashion or cars i like probably later on down the line ..but for right now i just need to chill

Im from DC

Im so glad to be back to DC ,Im happy to be around my family and cool people, IM happy that im able to get my mind off the death of my friend who passed away the day before yesterday (RiP kevin),im happy i get to go to hans point and play tennis with my grandma (im the best lol), Im happy i can go to johnny boys and get some ribs .....I need to put on some jill scott and chill from this crazy week

payless so hot!!

Payless is going to be killing the shoe game in sep 09 first of all the line up of designers come in different varities so it fits everyones taste. they have designers such as : lela rose,alice&olivia,abaete,Christian Siriano if you don't know who those designers are then ....sucks for you (try google)
you can check out other seasons on the link: payless

Christian Siriano aka Ferocia Couture ( from project runway )



abaete





Alice & olivia






lela rose

ideeli/win free stuff

Im trying to win a $2,500 shopping spree on ideeli but i have to get people to sign up it's free or you can pay for a membership or whatever you want to do just press on the link :http://www.ideeli.com/invite/sutolkia

OMG!!!!!

listen to this ....this is a radio prank gone sooooooooooooooo wrong: A women is trying to win kanye west tickets for her and her husband but she has to tell her husband that her 9 year old son isn't his to win those tickets....but something goes so wrong lmao listen to find out

This week sucks

1.I found out my ex has a new girl or what i thought was his girl is really his cousin ...they are the weirdest cousins i have ever seen in my life ( like that back woods shit )

2.my boyfriend....i don't even know what to say ...because i really don't know what we are at the moment ....i care about him so much he doesn't even know and then i try to talk to him about it ( which i rearly do because i think it's bitching)and i don't hear from him , I texted and got nothing back..he's so laid back it seems as if i don't mean shit or like he's with me until something better comes along..so as of now im waiting for him to tell me what we are so i don't feel like i wasted a f*ckin plane ticket for nothing

3.I hate my job , I work in my school library..I so nothing but look at magazines and play on the internet

4.Im in love

5.Im sick again

6. I have to pay $1300 to the school

7. no one reads this fucking blog so why do i write on here

8. I have to get out of ohio ...i came here for the wrong reasons anyway

9. i don't own a tv :(

10. women in DC please do not live your life like a fuckin zane novel it's fiction having all those men at once does not make you player it makes you ho ....men have all those women at once because they are insecure and need something to make them feel like a man.when really they don't like to be alone without having to commit to one woman
....being a player is not cool because in the end you always end up alone
no one likes to play games ,

this is not checkers either your going to give it up to the guy or your not don't play mind games ,


women shut the hell up sometimes ..damn you talk to much, sometimes moments don't words just let it be

don't ask shit you don't wnat to know the answer to because then you'll get mad at him for some shit you asked the question to.

men don't know what the f*ck you want unless you actually say it
if you are in your 30 to 40's that whole chase game is over when it comes to men that whole " If he loves me he'll come after me"thing is over because he's your both to old to do that shit

....men i swear to gosh if you love her say that shit don't have her thinkin you don't feel the same way after she said it 13 times and you said it 3 kinda ( I l_ove you , me too, I like you too) is not i love you ...

uuuuummmm ok....no

My blackness won't allow me to wear those, i mean those just open up the racist comments like *in country racist accent* "she loves watermelon so much she even had to wear it " i mean damn really or should i say my fashion sense won't allow me to wear those unless your a 9 year old girl and your mom thinks they are cute and easier than dealing with shoe strings ....after this I'm putting up dope shoes and BBC stuff that i pray i can own some day

LMAO

updates

sorry for the last depressing ass post lol...

ive been in ohio for a while and the weather sucks .Its been snowing for the last 3 days non stop ,so all i have been doing is homework and being pissed off that my ex is such an ass hole ( not going to get into that)...i don't have much to say other than what i have planned for my blog like: kick forcast,clothes i can see a star wearing,new mac computers ,new phones,youtube stuff, hair produces,why i like greek guys mostly alphas and kappas,cars,food,music and sex lol (well maybe not sex)..while im on the sex subject i have been like ...how can i put this into words so i don't feel like a slut ...ummmmmmm in the mood alot, i guess it's all that working out i've been doing because my abs are on point ( that was a quick a.d.d. moment sorry) these are my goal abs pics :

merry christmas and happy new year!

Sorry im late with that better now than never

this year has had it's up and downs ...like as of right now my mom is homeless which is sad , I gave her all the money i have in world so she can stay with my grandma for a month while she looks for another apartment/house. It's sad when you try your hardest and someone always trys to knock you down .....ive been messing up on my duties as a girlfriend ( not calling i mean lol)

and for the third time my little cousin is pregnant she's 16 she just had a baby 4 months ago...damn shame

I need something to make me smile because im in a grey zone right now :(
Oh well that's life