Yesterday was really bad so bad I don't want to go into it, I'll talk about today ...man today is amazing calm, relaxing day. The other night I could hear my neighbors going at it and whenever they do he puts on Coltrane and I get annoyed but today I looked out my window and sat there for about 3 hours listening to the john Coltrane's greatest albums and listening to that made me think about marriage and if "the one"/"Mr. right" was out there for me
Is he thinking about me right now?
will he like all the things I like?
will I marry an abusive guy like my grandma ?( that's my biggest fear)
how many kids will I have ?
will I know him when I see him?
did I let him go ?
and then in that mist of thinking I found my fedora and walked outside and sat on the stoop of my apartment building looking at people go by
I should people watch more often
well if he is out there I'll wait for him
Does everyone think about stuff like this when they are bored?